Strange

I'm screaming all alone in this silent crowd.

Scared

Cowering, pushing away from the awful sound of silence.

Strong

I'm standing by myself in this lonely hell.

Brave

I'll make it through this pain, through this terrible decline.

THE TRUTH

I am the wave

I am broken on the rocks

I am only one of many

I cannot make a difference

BLESSED BE THE DARKNESS

Blessed be the darkness

So quiet and so still

Blessed be the darkness

With its cool yet calming chill

Blessed be the darkness

So wild and untame

Blessed be the darkness

That though silent calls my name

PAST

You are my past

You are no more

This won't last

My soul won't soar

You broke my heart

You broke me

Your words, poison darts'

Trained me so quietly

My chains I'll break

My wounds will heal

Your world I'll shake

You'll know its real

A broken love

An injured trust

A wounded dove

Now you are my dust

OCEAN

Yelling, screaming

voices competing

doors slamming

windows breaking

My life is the ocean

A boat following the storm

The commotion of the waves

breaking on the deck

Chasing the turmoil

Seeking peace once its over

leaking gas and spilling oil

running frantically for some cover

Venting anger in the dark

seeking relief in the voice of a lark

wondering why life would deal such strife

hidden traps and waiting demons

flooding the light and parading the night

seeking reasons not to listen

seeking ways not to hear

panting hard while sweat glistens

trying not to shed a tear

silence reigns

my voice in chains

the healing light

the calming night

my troubled mind

cruel voices kind

nothing is real

another bad deal

the boat rocks

it tips

it flips

the story ends in shock

the end

goodbye my so-called friend

IF

If I told you that I love you would you listen?

If I told you that I hurt would you care?

If I said you were my all what would you do?

Would you hear me? Would you care? Would you comfort me?

BRING YOU DOWN

(Starting piano solo... vocals quietly begin)

Am I holding you back

Am I keeping you here

Stay away from me

I hinder you...

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(sing CHORUS loud)

CHORUS:

Cause I will bring you down

Baby can't you see

Staying here with me

Will keep you on the ground

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Fly away from here

Such an ugly place

Staring in your face

Filling you with fear

Baby earn your keep

I'd never hold you down

And baby as you sleep

I'll wash away your frown

CHORUS

Run away from this

Don't ever look back

Cover up your tracks

Live in ancient bliss

CHORUS

Don't let me keep you here

Swallowed up in fear

Push away

Never live in doubt

Float upon a cloud

In your sky

CHORUS (fades into ending piano solo)

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Someone Who Will Listen

If you're looking for a friend

Someone who will listen

I am by your side I'm

Someone who will listen

Does your fear make you blind, can't you see that I am

Someone who will listen

Does this lonely silence make you deaf? can't you hear me saing that I am

Someone who will listen

If the world turned you away, I would still be

Someone who will listen

And if anxiety ruled your mind, I would still be

Someone who will listen

Do you need me? Do you need

Someone who will listen to your fears...

to your anxieties.

I am your

Someone who will listen.

"Learning How To Bleed"

I feel the liquid fire

Searing up my arm

I see the pouring blood

I smile at my freedom

I cut for pleasure

I cut to please

This aching soul inside me

The lovely scars

My artful pain

Will I ever let the calm back again?

The rushing high

The high of pain

I must sit down

before I fall onto my blade.

"At least this way,"

I whisper oh so quietly

"the only one I'm hurting

is myself

I'm cutting away at my fear

my anxiety

my depression

I'm learning how to bleed.

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