Happy? Happiness is overrated.
>>2003-12-20<< >>10:34 a.m.<<

I'm lost, will you come and find me? I'm tired, will you reteach me how to breath? All I really need right now it you. I need you to want to be with me.

I miss feeling like I belonged. I used to "belong" here. I don't really feel that way anymore. Especially not since my mom got her spyware.

I don't really belong with the people I hang out with at school anymore either. They seem to have turned on me simply because Viole did. Just because I had what she wanted. Tanner. Yeah, we went out for about 4 days. And I seem to have lost everyone because of that. I never meant to hurt anyone, but she dumped him and then we... we started "going out" or "seeing each other" or whatever you want to say. But not anymore because he broke up with me but we're still best friends. His excuse for breaking up with m e was that he didn't think we could be happy together. I don't know, maybe he's right. But it still hurt. You all know how much he means to me. And whatever makes him happy is what I want. He said he wasn't ignoring or avoiding me, and we talked for a little while.

I still want him, but I can be happy so long as we're always friends. He says that's all he wants- is for me to be happy. And all I want is for him to be happy. So I guess I can see how us always arguing about making the other one happy would cause a problem.

Sigh.

I should go. Bye.

..::Now the Moon::..---..::Has clouded Over::..

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