I wish this was all just a nightmare.
>>2003-11-21<< >>6:54 p.m.<<

Hey.

Uh... I have alot i want to say and need to say, but i sort of just... dont want to talk about it. ever. i just want it all to go away, like a nightmare. i want to wake up from it.

I know it's stupid. Wanting to wake up from reality. But I do. I don't like it. I don't like it at all. My mom is having a mental breakdown. And she blames it all on me i think.

Yes, blame it all on the teenager. All she wants is the freedom to be an individual. And to be happy. Thats what i truly want. Is the freedom to do what makes me happy. Like being around Tanner and Brackett and everyone else that i care about.

But no- I'm not supposed to care about having friends. I'm not supposed to need people that i can talk to and trust. Sure, I've got Ramie; but I don't even trust her with some things. Some things I'll ONLY tell Tanner. He's the only one i'd ever trust everything to; but even though i trust him with everything, some shit is just too hard for me to actually say. It's weird I know.

But I don't care.

*sigh* I'm just so sick of all this shit. My mom call me lazy. Useless. And it pisses me off. And then i've been getting lectures from my teachers on top of that.

The only thing I like about school right now is my friends.

I don't want to talk right now. That's a first. Maybe some other time though. Not now. Later.

..::Now the Moon::..---..::Has clouded Over::..

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