Sigh
Thursday, December 18, 2003 Currently Playing The Golden Age Of Grotesque By Marilyn Manson see related - This Is The New Shit I am so bored. I think Tanner is mad at me for all the crap thats been going on with Viole and Martin and James. It's making me sick and lonely. Maybe I should try to get Matt. He's sweet and cool. And he's the only one who seems to still want to be with me at this point. Everyone else just feels so angry. And it all feels like it must be my fault. I don't like how heavy people have been being. It's like a weight. I can feel that it's all wrong, and I can't fix it.I've tried, I really have. Me and Matt spent a half hour discussing our "Worlds". He asked me, "What's the one thing in your world that you wish you hadn't created?" My answer: "A portal back to reality. Too bad it was necessary." He agreed with me. And don't laugh at me for discussing my world. You all know that you have escape-places in your head that you can run to. It's just a matter of whether or not you are too much of a coward to admit that your world exists. I've been spending alot of time in my world lately. Reading Johnny the Homicidal Maniac comics and thinking about how I can fix things. Matt let me borrow his JTHM Directors Cut comic book and I've been reading it nonstop. It makes me think alot. Funny how a murderous teenager (who is very sexy, by the way) can induce such deep thoughts. JTHM has his Nailbunny to talk to. I have the air. And Matt. No, I am not insane. You are. I'm the only sane one left on this miserable planet. Damn. And just for the record- I am not a very big Marilyn Manson fan. I respect him for pissing off the whole planet so effectively, but I'm not partial to his music. This song, however ("This is the New Shit" for those of you who are mentally impaired) makes some amount of sense to me right now. I like it. Happy Noodle Boy says: Kung Fi bitch! Sniff my powerful armpit! Kill the evil platipus! The zits attack!
..::Now the Moon::..---..::Has clouded Over::..
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