SAT- Stupid Ass Test
>>2003-11-01<< >>5:31 p.m.<<

Hey.

I took the SAT1 today. For the second time. I took it in 7th grade and made a 1060. I wonder what I'll have this time.

My mom dropped me off at John Milledge Academy (the test site) at around 7:45 this morning. Matt was in my classroom, sitting right in front of me.

Friends are such a comfort.

He brought me home too. And despite myself, I was a little scared. I don't know why; I know I have nothing to fear from Matt. But for some reason... I don't know. I know that none of my guy friends would ever do anything to seriously hurt me, but being in a truck with a 17 year old who works out in the school gym every day... I know it's stupid, but I felt REALLY helpless. I mean, put yourself in my position: a just-turned-15 year old, very weak, girl; in a beat up chevy with a very strong 17 year old who admits to having a serious crush on me. More than a little unnerving. We were talking about music and shit, and he said something about the "million and one dirty thoughts" guys are always having. It did not help my paranoia. At all. I asked him if any of his "dirty guy thoughts" were about me and told him that those potential thoughts weren't helping me to stay calm and he said something like, "Would it help if I said that a million of those thoughts aren't about you, and the other one is indecisive?"

I know it's not much, but it definfitely helped me to chill out some.

Alright, I have a party to go to at Lexi's house.

Bye.

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